Where am I these days?
Stripped down of all my greatest excuses/distractions from learning to lean on God more, and unable to move forward til I do. And I’m thankful. Soberly, and fighting resentment, but thankful.
I’m getting….God’s getting me ready for some important stuff, some endeavors that are gonna require me to have more faith than I have now. That’s why right now I’m not doing any freelancing (media producing or DJing), or dabbling in many after-work activities (salsa lessons/dancing, etc). The only thing I’m doing on the regular is meeting with some fellas to encourage and strengthen each other, which is the best thing for me right now.
It’s time to set down proper foundations. Foundations in my pursuit to personify the Creator’s definition of a man, how I do business, and serve those around me.
On his deathbed, King David tells his son Solomon in 1 Kings 2:1-3 to show himself a man by observing what the Lord says and walking in all God’s ways all his life. This charge from a dying father to his son has carried mad weight in my heart over the years. My Dad is a great role model and all but I’ve never gotten such a noble charge before. This is a defining scripture for me — my aspiration, my definition.
But it butts heads with culture and society like nothing else I’ve ever witnessed. And it often creates a tangible tension between what God says and 18 years of internalizing, conditioning, and familiarity with the rest of the world’s way of doing things. Five years I’ve been at this, and I feel like it’s just getting real.
And it’s just getting good.
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